I am that girl

You know a kind of girl that standing in the middle of crowd?
Yes, the one who talks elegantly and everybody's admire her?
Yes, the one who people gonna listen?
Yeah, I'm obviously just not that type of girl
I'm not standing in the crowd
I'm sitting far away from the crowd
Almost all alone
If all the bugs and butterflies don't coming
I'm not talking elegantly
I'm saying what's I want to say
And speak less
People won't listen to me
Why would them?


I'm not that kind of girl that runs on boys mind
I'm not that kind of girl that everybody want to be
I'm not that kind of girl that boys crushing on
I'm not that kind of girl that greeted by many people
I'm not that kind of girl that show all I've got
I'm not that kind of girl that don't care what people say
I'm not that kind of girl that steals adult hearts
I'm not that kinds of girl



I'm that kind of girl that you can talk to when everybody's starts talking bout you
I'm that kind of girl that always listen
I'm that kind of girl that always be silent when you're mad at me
I'm that kind of girl that hiding what I've got
I'm that kind of girl that always write what I feel
I'm that kind of girl that prefer to hang out with boys
I'm that kind of girl that worry anything
I'm that kind of girl that you might call weird at
But I'm the girl with imperfections
I'm the girl who will hold your hand when you have nobody
I'm the girl you can ask how to end a problem to
I'm the girl you can have fun with
I'm the girl you can play Truth or Dare with
I'm the girl you can shout random things with and do crazy things
I'm the girl that always smile even if it hurts
I'm the girl that always set the music on while everybody's on serious level
I'm the girl that always trying to be nice

But I can lose my temper too. I can, alright? I just clearly good at fake it to a smile. But I need a place where I can stop pretending that I'm fine, okay, and like dont-worry-about-me. Well, that's a damn. Everyone need a place where they can show who they really are, of any details. I need that place too. Place where I can lean on, where I can tell how I really feel, about this life, people, them, him, her. Place where I can cry with no one says that I'm crying-baby. Place that gonna calm me down and delete all my worries.

I was trying to stay strong and keep on smile, but then people just like,"Look, she's happy. Let's give her life a bit damn,"
The worst feeling in social life is when nobody cares how you feel and they think they can hurt you cause you looks unbroken but you're totally.........vulnerable.